Y Monday, December 18, 2006
Today at 11.30am would be my mother's operation.. I am still worried about the operation even though the specialist said that there is a high percentage of success... A high percentage of success doesn't mean there would be no chance of a mistake being done... HELLO? THIS IS DRIVING 6 SCREWS IN UR SPINAL CORD! HOW WOULD THIS HAVE NO CHANCE OF FAILURE?
Accompanied my mum to church today.. Saw her cry when her pastor was praying for her... Yesterday she said something that really broke my heart.. She said that if the operation did not succeed, she has already informed her pastor that she wants to be cremated and her ashes to be thrown into the ocean. Cause she didn't want to be a burden to my family in the near future by making us pray to her... This indeed broke my heart and this suddenly made me feel why we should cherish our times as family together... Now i am really praying hard to god to help her so as to succeed this operation and that she could spend few more years together with us..
Suddenly Yan reminded me of a composition i wrote about 'saying good-bye'. It was about the story of my mother who fainted and she got leukemia.. At the end of the story, she passed away.. I really hope this isn't any curse i am giving to my mother as she was the sole breadwinner in my family when she had my brothers and sisters in the past.. My father was not even of use to the family and i am really afraid that the one who brought me up would suddenly pass away..
'Dear Lord Jesus, pls help my mother on her operation today... I really hope that this operation would be a success and that she would gradually become more strong-willed and more faithful to you... In Jesus name i pray, Amen.'
I really hope this prayer to help my mum on her operation. Don't have much to blog this few days, only playing GB with daniel and Dotaing with denny... Well... I have nth else to say now..
Till then..
